I feel like I should give an update, but there's just not much going on right now. This morning I started a new-to-me med called Ganirelix which is just another suppression med. This one will see me all the way through trigger to (hopefully) keep me from ovulating too soon. I got blood drawn yesterday and all of my levels came back right where they should be. I'm now waiting to start my period, which will hopefully happen today or tomorrow and then we are cleared to start stimming on Monday. Tomorrow we add in the E2V/Delestrogen shots (which are intramuscular - similar to the Progesterone - ouch!). It's my understanding this is supposed to help with my lining and aid in implantation.
As we inch closer to "pulling out the big drugs" I am finding myself getting more focused and the hope is creeping back in. While I still find myself thinking about what our next steps are if this cycle doesn't work, I'm also thinking about what if it does. A lot of my blogger friends have gotten BFP in the past couple of months and it's so hopeful for me. It's also a little bit scary because we all know the statistics and it can't work for everyone. But I'm doing my best to stay positive and I really am hopeful for a better outcome this cycle.
I know from our first IVF that once you start stim drugs everything (at least for me) seems to go in fast forward. It's so much better for me mentally to be actually DOING something daily to help make this dream a reality even if the action is just shooting myself up with numerous drugs and hormones. Every day and every shot brings us one day closer. Baby steps people.....baby steps.
One of the girls I follow (who's blog I absolutely LOVE) posted this amazing article yesterday. As I was reading it I just kept thinking things like "YES!" and "EXACTLY!" It really was able to put my feelings about infertility into words - I couldn't have said it better myself. I wanted to share for not only my friends fighting infertility but those who aren't to give a better perspective of this painful battle.
The Disgrace of Infertility