It's funny how different this cycle is now that I've been through IVF once. This morning I got up and went through my normal morning routine and it didn't hit me until I pulled into the parking lot at work that I didn't do my Lupron shot or take my prenatal and steroid. I kind of freaked out because I know the Lupron is time sensitive. I can't believe I just completely forgot. Our house is currently on the market and we had a showing yesterday so I hid all my needles and drugs away in a cabinet and it just did not cross my mind. Last cycle my entire world centered around IVF, injections, drugs, and obsessing over every daily step. Granted I'm only a few days in to this cycle but it's already so different. While IVF #2 is definitely the most important thing going on in our life at the moment, this time it's not the ONLY thing. I think this is a good thing because I'm sure all of the obsessing can't be healthy. Needless to say I called Nurse Jenny and she said it wasn't going to do any harm to mess it up one time and just take it as soon as I could. So I hauled ass home to do the injection. And now life goes on right?
I feel a little guilty almost like in order for this to work I HAVE to obsess over it and think about nothing else. It's not that it's not important, I mean what's MORE important than having a child to us? I think about it numerous times a day. It's like I feel like if I'm not constantly worried and thinking about it almost like I don't deserve for it to succeed. Infertility really does crazy things to your mind.
I'm looking forward to the long weekend (no work for me on Monday for Martin Luther King Day) and taking my last birth control pill on Sunday. I have my baseline E2 blood draw and u/s on Wednesday the 22nd so hopefully everything will be low and resting quietly.
Happy Friday everyone!