I wish I could put in to words how I"m feeling this time compared to last. Some of it is much the same and some of it is completely different. I am definitely feeling hopeful and excited but in a different way than the first time. This time I know what we are up against and while the more aggressive protocol seems to have improved our results so far, I also know now that I won't rest easy until we get the fertilization report. There's just so much that can
My mom recently sent me this amazing gift and I've been wearing it since starting STIM drugs.
The one thing I did learn from our first failure with IVF is that I'm stronger than I thought. I survived the disappointment and loss and we picked ourselves up and tried again. And I will do that again if I have to. Not to say that I won't be devastated and heartbroken because I will. But I also know deep in my heart that I am MEANT to be a mother. And I'm not ready to give up yet.
So for now I'll hope and pray for a successful retrieval of LOTS of healthy mature eggs. I will be strong for myself and for D. I will be positive and believe that this will work for us. And I'll look forward to our future and not behind at our loss. And regardless of the outcome I will go on.