I feel broken. Heart broken, physically broken, emotionally broken. I don't understand why this is happening to us. I don't know what is wrong with my body. I don't know how we move on.
I feel like we are never going to have a baby. And it feels so unfair. I'm angry. And I'm sad. I'm so sad. I feel like D has been tricked into this childless marriage and it clearly was not what he signed up for. I feel guilty. And the weight of my disappointment, his disappointment, our parents disappointment is crushing me. I have failed everyone. Again.
I have no idea where we go from here. I feel hopeless and helpless. And so very alone.